There’s always a saying that life gives us the test first, the lessons later. By the time, i was in my middle forties, i had experienced so many tests and survived them all. I’d taken risks, the most of which was marriage and having children. But to really be what I want to be, I have to take even more. I have to embrace risk. The greatest risk I took was when i decided together with my husband to retire from our stable jobs, leave our children in the Philippines and stayed here. At first, my heart was weary and my thoughts full of “what ifs”. What if my children can’t survive without me?, what if we can”t adjust the life and weather here? what if i can’t find a job? what if we’ll be forced to go home? and many more. But risk is a funny thing. Each time you risk, it becomes easier to do. That’s because each time you go for it, it further reinforces your self-esteem and offers concrete evidence that you can indeed succeed.
Right now, our lives are at risks. My children are living their lives without parents. My husband’s job is quite risky for he works alone at night. My job is risky too because my 92 years old employer might not wake up tomorrow. But we’re living one day at a time. I enjoined my family to believe in God’s promise in Psalm 23:6 ” Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever“. There is no turning back. We have to embrace risk knowing and believing in our hearts that risks allow us to become what we were meant to be.
Only the future will tell.
